Table Of ContentOnce An Angel
Teresa Medeiros
Copyright © 1993 by Teresa Medeiros
ISBN 0-553-29409-1
I remember clinging to Mama's hand and watching you walk away in your
uniform to fight for your country in Vietnam. You were the most handsome man
in the world to me. But nothing could top the sight of you coming home again.
You'll always be my hero, Daddy, and this one's for you.
For Barbara Caldwell and Anne Hall Eiseman, the finest two sisters I never had.
And for Michael, who proved to me that angels do exist.
Prologue
New Zealand
1865
Justin Connor's numb fingers uncurled. The smoking pistol fell from his hand.
Frightened by the blast,
the natives had fled, leaving him alone with the primeval roar of the waves and
the dark shape crumpled
a few feet away.
He bit off a savage curse.
Dread flooded him as he moved toward the motionless figure sprawled like a
broken doll in the sand.
The moonlight caressed David's face, a face handsome in its good-natured
ordinariness, a face one
might pass on the London streets without giving it a second glance. A thin
trickle of blood eased from
the corner of his mouth.
His eyes fluttered open. "I do say, lad, could you move a bit to the left? You're
blocking the breeze."
His voice was such a matter-of-fact comfort that Justin wanted to weep.
He sank to his knees and caught David in his arms. "Damn you, Scarborough.
Don't you dare die on
me now!"
Blood soaked the front of David's shirt. Justin had seen too many fatal wounds in
the taming of this
brutal land. Even as he struggled to stanch the bleeding with his palm, he knew
this man who had been friend, brother, and father to him was going to die. He
brushed a wayward curl from David's pallid brow.
David lifted his hand. A gold chain was tangled around his fingers. "Claire," he
whispered hoarsely.
As he pressed the chain into Justin's bloody hand, Justin knew why David had
fled back to their tent instead of to the waiting boat. He hadn't gone to fetch a
weapon as Justin had supposed, but the precious miniature of his daughter that
he carried in his watch case.
David's voice was waning. "Go to her. Tell her I'm sorry. Tell her I loved her.
Take care of my little angel, Justin. Swear you will."
Justin couldn't speak. A lump welled up in his throat. He stared down at the
watch in his hand, afraid to open it. How could he face that gamin smile, those
gentle brown eyes, and be forced someday to tell her how her father had died in
his arms on a lonely shore? If he didn't say the words, perhaps David would not
die.
With a last burst of strength David's fingers dug like claws into his arms. His
words were driven through clenched teeth. "By God, Justin! Swear it. You
must!"
Justin bowed his head, refusing to meet David's fevered gaze. His tears washed
over David's face.
"I swear it," he whispered.
David slumped across his lap. "That's my boy." A shadow of a smile creased his
mouth. "I shan't be needing a gold mine where I'm going," he murmured. "The
streets are paved with nothing but gold."
Justin managed to smile through his tears. "The eternal optimist, aren't you?"
But there was no one to answer his question.
He cradled his friend's lifeless body to his chest, rocking back and forth as guilt
and desolation washed over him as pounding and relentless as the waves against
the sand.
When he finally rose, his stiff legs trembled. He hefted David in his arms like a
child. His limp head dangled over Justin's arm, the auburn tangle of his hair
gilded by moonlight. Justin laid him in the
bottom of the curricle, arranging his limbs with the utmost tenderness. Using a
long pole, he shoved
off from the shore, then sank down beside David's body, frozen with numbing
anguish.
His hand throbbed. He looked down to discover he had been clutching David's
watch case so hard
that the imprint was embedded in his palm. He slowly opened it.
A moppet's face, framed in unruly curls, gazed up at him, her eyes trusting and
merry. David's eyes, sparkling with life. Justin snapped the watch shut. All their
dreams were done now. All of it gone—the gold mine, Nicholas, little Claire's
inheritance. He leaned his head against the rim of the boat, drifting, endlessly
drifting as the mocking glitter of the stars blurred before his eyes.
*
Miss Amelia Winters stole a look over the rim of her spectacles as the child
slipped into the library.
Only a few months ago Claire would have come pounding through the door,
ribbons flying, boot
buttons unhooked, chattering a merry stream. It was a pity it had taken her
father's disappearance to
tame her exuberance and make a proper young lady of her.
Except for that hair. The headmistress sniffed in disdain. All the brushing in the
world couldn't subdue those absurd curls. Even garbed in somber colors, the
child more resembled a disheveled cherub than
a Foxworth girl. At least her pinafore was clean for a change. There was none of
the coal dust that revealed she'd been romping with the maids again and none of
the hairs that warned she'd sneaked out
to the stables to feed the mewling litter at rescued without Amelia's approval
from a neighbor's well.
As the girl bobbed a perfunctory curtsy, her breath wafted out on a chill cloud. It
wouldn't do to waste coal when it was nearly February, thought Amelia,
snuggling deeper into her heavy tweeds.
Claire perched on the edge of the upholstered cushion as if afraid the rosewood
armchair would swallow her. Amelia suppressed her shock. Where had the girl's
childish plumpness gone? The black dress made her look gaunt and leggy, all
enormous dark eyes in a face as pale as milk. Those eyes, so solemn and
unflinching, rested on her now with an expression far older than Claire's eleven
years. Only the child's hands betrayed her restlessness, crumpling the yellowed
paper that was to be her last letter from her father.
A thread of pity stirred in Amelia. Better to be brisk and kill the child's hopes
with one swift, clean blow.
She rattled the crisp sheaf of paper on her desk and cleared her throat. "I regret
to inform you—"
"Do you?" Claire interrupted.
She lifted her gaze from the paper. "Do I what?"
"Regret it?"
Miss Winters blinked. Their gazes locked for a moment. The child did not look
insolent, merely
curious, which only infuriated Amelia more.
She adjusted her spectacles, dismayed to discover her hands were shaking more
in fear than anger.
"I must remind you to curb your impertinence, young lady. I have before me a
letter from Sir George Grey, the governor of New Zealand. He regrets to inform
you that your father, one David Scarborough,
is dead."
The word fell flat in the still room. Claire went a shade paler. Her small fist
convulsed around her
father's letter. She knew, Amelia thought. My God, she already knew.
Regretting her sharpness, Amelia blundered on. "Your father made no provisions
for you, but you shall
be welcomed to stay at Foxworth Seminary until satisfactory arrangements can
be made."
What was she saying? She could hardly tolerate the |precocious little creature.
All those shocking years
of living unchaperoned with her father had given her a self-confidence bordering
on arrogance. Hardly
a proper demeanor for a Foxworth girl. She must pack her off to the orphanage
without delay.
But caught in the web of the girl's unnerving calm, Amelia droned on. "You will
have to give up
your sitting room, of course, as the paying students will—"
"That won't be necessary."
Amelia winced. The girl was interrupting again. Had her doting father taught her
no manners?
"I shall have no need of your charity," Claire continued, her manner as cool and
regal as that of a
recently deposed princess. "My father's dear friend and partner in the gold mine
will be coming for
me very soon. Mr. Connor is heir to the present Duke of Winthrop and a rich and
powerful man.
My father promised he would take care of me should anything untoward happen
to him."
A hint of a sneer curled Amelia's lips, showing Claire that she thought of her
father's extravagant promises. She, too, had been taken in by David
Scarborough's winning smile. She had been so
confident that he would pay the tuition that she had made several purchases for
both the school and herself credited only to his charm. Who would pay her debts
now? His ghost?
He promised to come back for you as well, didn't he, dear?
Amelia bit back the cruel words, forcing a smile. "We don't feel you should
harbor any childish
hopes, Claire."
"Don't call me that!" Suddenly the girl was looming over the desk, her eyes
seething with fierce
emotion, her hands clenched into fists. "Don't ever call me that again. Only my
daddy called me
Claire. My name is Emily."
Amelia shrank back in her chair without realizing it. Her hand fluttered at her
lace collar.
The girl fled for the door. She flung it open, almost tripping over the aproned
child kneeling at the portal. By the time Miss Winters reached the door, she was
gone. The pounding of her footsteps echoed through the listening silence. A
flash of white dimity through a fat door warned the headmistress that the maid
had not been their only audience.
Amelia clung to the door frame, her breath coming in short, hard gasps. The
maid straightened, weeping too hard to pretend she'd been doing anything but
eavesdropping.
"Oh, mum, the poor dear," she wailed. She swiped at her reddened nose with her
apron, leaving a
smudge of coal dust on its tip. "Only this mornin' she gave me the sweetmeat off
'er plate to take to me consumptive brother Freddie."
Amelia straightened, giving the girl a quelling look. " 'If I'd wanted your opinion
on Miss Scarborough's charitable activities, Tansy, I'd have asked for it."
The maid snatched up her cloth and dabbed at the face of the hall clock as the
headmistress jerked her jacket straight and marched back into the library. The
slam of her door thundered through the school.
The little maid rolled her eyes heavenward, her hands clasped around the rag.
"'Elp the dear child, Lord," she whispered fervently. "If ever ya sent an angel to
this earth, I knowed me sweet Emily Claire to be
the one."
*
"Damn it. Damn it to bloody hell!" Emily stamped her stockinged foot on the
Aubusson rug.
A porcelain doll stared back at her from a lace-trimmed pillow, her round blue
eyes giazed with apathy.
A delicate thread of gold circled her tiny wrist. Emily shuddered. Only the allure
of gold had been strong enough to drag her father away from her. Somewhere in
New Zealand there was a mine full of gold. What good was it, though, when her
daddy slept beneath the earth, bound by its shining chains? Emily's hand lashed
out, knocking the doll across the elegant bedroom.
She dropped to her knees and stuffed the hem of the satin coverlet into her
mouth so the whole school wouldn't hear her scream. Tears scalded her cheeks.
Her sobs had faded to choked whimpers before
she dared to open her eyes to the lonely extravagance of the suite.
The doll lay in a pitiful heap before the window, her petticoats tossed over her
face.
"Oh, Annabel," Emily whispered. She crawled to the doll and turned her over.
A thin crack gashed her china temple. Emily hugged her, feeling the jagged
fissure that ran from the
doll's hairline to her own shattered heart.
"I'm so very sorry, Annabel." She smoothed the doll's velvet skirt and gently
kissed the crack. "We
have to be very brave now, dear. Daddy said we must be very brave." Her laugh
came out as a feeble hiccup. "All we have to do is wait."
She climbed into the window seat, clutching the doll to her breast. A lamplighter
wound his solitary
path down the cobbled street below, nursing the gaslights to flickering life. Their
misty haios pierced the twilight with a greenish tint. Annabel's reflection gazed
back at her from the window, her rosy cheeks
and blond ringlets a startling contrast to her own tousled, dark curls and wan
face. She tucked the doll beneath her chin. A shiver wracked her slender body.
"We'll wait like good girls, Annabel," she whispered. "Daddy can't come for us
now, but Mr. Connor
will. Daddy promised he would come."
As she rocked back and forth in the gathering darkness, a tear splashed from her
chin and trickled
slowly down Annabel's porcelain cheek.
