Table Of ContentMasters at Arms
by Kallypso Masters
Masters at Arms
First in the Rescue Me Series
by
Kallypso Masters
Copyright 2011, Kallypso Masters Smashwords Edition
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Edited by Jeri Smith, www.booksmithediting.com
Cover art by Linda Lynn
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Dedication
This book is dedicated to my pre-publication fans who fell in love with the
Masters at Arms—Adam, Marc, and Damián—and followed along on my
journey since May 2011. Your encouragement and excitement kept me working
to make sure this novel lived up to your expectations. (Of course, the masters
used the flogger and single-tailed whip on occasion, as needed, for motivation,
too.)
Now I turn the Master at Arms over to your good care. (But, trust me, if
you’re bad, they can be even more fun. Of course, you’ll have to wait to see how
their romances turn out in Nobody’s Angel, Nobody’s Hero, and Nobody’s
Perfect—where their sexy Dom modes will come to the fore.)
I also dedicate this book to the men and women in uniform. God bless and
thank you for your service.
Acknowledgements
There are so many people to thank, and I’m sure I’ll forget some. First, I’d
like to thank my editor, Jeri Smith, of Booksmith Editing. Your keen eye and
excellent suggestions have made this book into what it is today, and have led me
to improve on how the story of how these three men formed such a strong band-
of-brothers bond. Thanks also for your encouragement. I look forward to
working with you on the other books in this series.
To my beta readers and critiquers Fiona Campbell, Kristin Harris, Kelly
Hensley, Carol Ann MacKay, Kathy McKenzie, Kelly Mueller, Lani Rhea,
Kelly Timm, and Kathy Treadway. Your insightful suggestions helped save me
embarrassment and to make this book and its characters so much stronger.
To Laura Harner, Carol Ann MacKay, and S.A. Moore, thanks for your help
in getting my military facts straight. All remaining errors are mine, of course.
(Readers: Please keep in mind that the military protocols and equipment
described in this book are from 2002-2005 and may not be the same as those
followed currently.)
Thanks to my many Facebook friends for encouragement and support.
Thanks to Elizabeth Leighton, who came up with the title of this book; to Lizzie
Walker, who discovered Master Adam’s craving for peanut butter; and to Anita
Hayes who just knew Master Adam would listen to Aerosmith.
To my wonderful MPs, thank you for lifting me up, making me laugh, giving
me delightful inspiration into the lifestyle, and providing me multiple social-
networking fixes every day! You’re the best! Thanks to Katona Barnes and Lisa
Kait, especially for completing the Mistresses Admin 3. We’re invincible!
Last, but not in no way least, to Cherise Sinclair, who wrote Club
Shadowlands, the first erotic romance I ever read. Your Doms and subbies are to
die for and I hope mine are one-tenth as memorable. Thanks also for your
Facebook friendship, mentoring me on various aspects of the lifestyle, and for
your ongoing support and encouragement. Now, please get back to work and
finish Master Raoul’s story, my dear Alpha Sub. I can’t wait for my next visit to
Club Shadowlands.
Section One
Prequel to Adam’s Story, Nobody’s Hero
Night before Thanksgiving 2002, Chicago, Illinois
Joni, you were my anchor. I’m lost without you.
Adam Montague slumped into the seat at the terminal, hoping to catch a
couple hours of sleep before his bus left. He looked around Chicago’s busy
terminal and saw the autumn decorations scattered every five yards or so.
Apparently, going for the homey Thanksgiving look. Not even close. Just
another crap-hole bus station, no different from the ones he’d seen a lot of
during his early years in the Marines.
Twenty-two years. He’d survived the First Gulf War in 1991 and a
deployment to Kosovo in ’99. Just when he and Joni started planning for his
retirement, some damned assholes attacked the United States, the country he’d
sworn to protect and defend. So, he’d put off turning in his retirement papers
until he could see how Operation Enduring Freedom went. He’d serve as long as
he was useful and needed.
Adam had been deployed to Kandahar twice since 2001. His first tour ended
with a medical leave earlier this year after a clusterfuck of bad intelligence led
one of his recon units into an ambush with disastrous results. He’d gone in after
them and gotten only a few of them out unscathed, but he’d lost two good men
and managed to get himself injured in the bargain.
So, he’d been home at Camp Pendleton with Joni more than a month last
winter as his body had healed. Now he wondered if she’d known about her
cancer back then and kept it from him. Would it have made any difference if
he’d known? He’d have been sent back to war and she’d still have had to fight
the disease alone. She’d known the deal when she married him. While he was
active duty, she’d have to take a back seat to whatever crisis he’d been sent to
fight in the world.
His last tour had ended with his hardship leave two months ago when Joni’s
mother had finally told him Joni’s cancer had come back with a vengeance. He
hung his aching head and held it in his hands hoping the heels of his hands
would quell the throbbing in his temples.
Memories of walking into that bedroom in Minneapolis two months ago
flashed through his mind. He squeezed his eyes shut, trying to block it out, but
knew the sight was imprinted there forever. God, the disease had so ravaged her
body by the time he got home, he was afraid to touch her. Then her frail hand
had patted the queen-sized mattress and he’d crawled into bed with her and held
her in his arms while she sobbed.
Adam raised his head and wiped his hands down his face. Numb. He still felt
numb, whether from losing Joni or from the two-week bender, he wasn’t sure.
Probably a bit of both.
He guessed his units were out of Kandahar by now. Sounded like Iraq would
be next on their dance card.
Bring it on. I got nothin’ left to lose.
Fuck! Stinkin’ thinkin’ like that would get the men and women under him
killed. He knew he wasn’t mentally ready to go back, but his orders were to
report Monday. He hoped he’d find the fire in his gut he’d need by the time he
reunited with his units.
A cornucopia cutout hanging from a fluorescent light fluttered when a
blustery wind blew in from the open doors. Joni had always taken so much pride
in making their home festive for the holidays. She especially loved Christmas,
even though it was just the two of them, well, when he wasn’t deployed. She
even kept her nativity set and some other favorite decorations displayed all year
long for whenever he did make it home. Not that he paid much attention to that.
He’d just been happy to see her, hold her, love her, and make up for lost time.
So damned much lost time.
What the hell was he going to do with all that stuff now? He’d call her
mother and tell her to do whatever she wanted with it. He had his memories and
a few photos—and her wedding ring. Shit, he hoped Joni had gotten rid of their
playthings before she’d moved in with her mom. Well, nothing he could do
about that now.
Camp Pendleton—or wherever he would be sent—would be his home until
he retired from the Corps. He hoped that, by the time he got back in country,
whichever war zone that would be, he’d have shaken off this black mood that
matched the frigid black night outside.
In a way, he couldn’t wait to get back. War and military life, he understood.
What stumped him was cancer. Fucking cancer. Nothing in his tactical or
weaponry training prepared him to help Joni fight against the insurgent that
destroyed her body.
Not that she’d even wanted him to help her fight the disease. By the time
she’d let her mom tell him about the recurrence, she was given a month at best.
She’d managed to hold out for a couple weeks longer than that estimate.
God, his eyes burned. He rubbed them with a thumb and forefinger, then
lowered his hand and clenched his fist. Damn it, he should have known sooner.
Joni told him she saw no point in pulling him away from a place where he
could make a difference, just to sit by her bed and watch her die. She’d figured
he’d have gone stir crazy with the helplessness of not being able to do anything
to change the unalterable outcome.
God, he’d kill for another bottle of scotch right now. He looked at the wino
passed out on the floor across the room. Adam thought about offering the man a
wad of money for whatever he had left in the brown-paper wrapped bottle he
clutched to his chest with both arms, like a lover.
Adam had held Joni in his arms for the last time, just like that, as she had
slipped away from him forever. Before she died, two days short of their
twentieth wedding anniversary, she’d assured him she wouldn’t have changed a
thing in their years together.
Hell, he’d sure have changed a few things.
Togetherness wasn’t the best word to describe their marriage. She’d lived
with him on base when he wasn’t deployed, and they had eight years together
after the end of the Gulf War and before he’d been sent to Kosovo. Then came
Operation Enduring Freedom and he hadn’t been home much since.
They’d talked about the good times they’d had in the ’80s and ’90s when he
hadn’t been deployed to war zones. Their Dom/sub power exchanges had been
total then. But that had been impossible to sustain while deployed.
Fire burned the backs of his eyes. Joni never wanted him to take his focus off
the military missions to deal with her “little problems.” Like the time she’d
totaled the car. She’d had to take care of everything herself. He’d been deployed,
of course. As always, she’d handled everything perfectly. Except she hadn’t told
him. Said she was afraid he’d be upset about the car. Hell, he didn’t give a shit
about the fucking car. He’d just been worried when he heard how close she’d
come to being killed.
All of the times she’d needed him—from when she’d held their stillborn son
in her arms in 1991 to when she’d fought her last rounds of chemo and radiation
this past summer—he’d been fighting battles elsewhere. Long deployments in
too many hot spots in the world had come before her more often than he’d
wanted. Hell, he’d barely made it home in time to watch her die.
Joni, I’m so fucking lost without you.
He blinked against the burning in his eyes. After her burial, Adam spent two
weeks locked in a Minneapolis motel room trying to dig a hole deep enough to
bury his sorrows. He’d only wound up in a drunken stupor, not unlike that
wino’s over in the corner. Joni had told him to lay off the bottle twenty years ago
because his excessive drinking scared her. Her father had been an alcoholic.
He’d wanted her to be proud of him and had quit for her.
Until now. In the past couple weeks, there’d been a few nights where he’d
come out of his stupor clutching a bottle of scotch to his chest.
A lousy substitute for Joni.
But, if he hadn’t been due back at Camp Pendleton in five days, he’d still be
in that hell-hole motel—or buried six feet under beside Joni. He remembered
how close he’d come one night, staring down the barrel of his pistol.
He shuddered and looked around the still-crowded station. He’d been here
for several hours waiting for his next connection. With holiday travel in full
swing, Adam had known he wouldn’t have managed to hop a seat on a flight in
time to get to Pendleton by Monday. Maybe if he’d sobered up sooner. No
matter. This weekend, the clientele in bus stations better suited his foul mood.
They wouldn’t bother him and he fucking sure wouldn’t bother them. The last
thing he wanted right now was a chatty companion asking if he was headed
home to be with family.
He had no family anymore.
Adam leaned forward and held his aching head in his hands. He sure as hell
hoped he’d lose the aftereffects of this binge before he got back on base. The
colonel would bust his chops if he saw him like this. Adam knew he had a lot of
eager young men and women looking to him to set an example, too.
He just didn’t give a shit about anything or anyone right now, and didn’t
know when he would again.
“Can I get you something to eat?”
Adam looked up, squinting at the throbbing in his temples caused by the
fluorescent lighting. Yeah, blame the lights. He saw a lanky black man in
pimped-out orange pants and a Robin’s egg-blue shirt talking to a teenage girl
seated across from him. She must have just sat down a few minutes ago, because
he’d have noticed her before with her spiked neon pink hair and the most god-
awful amount of makeup around her eyes.
Despite the bravado of her flashy hairstyle and all-black Goth outfit, her
wide-eyed gaze darted to the pimp, then away. When he slid into the empty seat
next to her, she leaned away from him in small degrees, as if not wanting to
offend him by just getting up and moving. When the dickwad reached out to
touch her hair, she squeezed her blue eyes shut and shrank into the chair.
Little girl lost.
Don’t let him scare you.
Adam’s attention shifted to the dickwad. No, Dickwad—with a capital D.
“No, thanks. I already ate,” she answered in a high-pitched squeak.
Don’t be polite. Tell him to go fuck himself, hon.
