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Self-control was the furthest thing from my mind as I thought about what I
would tell my supervisor. I honestly didn’t think I was being treated fair. And I
don’t think I could handle it so why not just quit. I quit many things in my life
when they weren’t going my way. Why does God allow me to go through all
this? He knows that I can’t handle it and how I treat things as if I was being
rejected. He knows everything about me, why does He allow it? As I am
writing the answer comes into my head and I don’t like it but realize it is the
truth, “LONGSUFFERING”. Of course God is perfecting the fruits of the spirit
in me and I failed again. My non-Christian co-worker is so much better at this
than me. I am a bad witness of my faith. God is working in me and I am sorry
but I find it rather painful. I had years of training in quitting everything. This I
am good at. I used to call my grandma and tell her scenarios and she would say
“Oh that’s too hard, just quit.” Now that my grandma is gone, I don’t have
anyone to help me quit. I only have a co-worker that tells me not to be like that.
I know that she is right and this also erks me.
Longsuffering- having or showing patience in spite of troubles, especially those
caused by other people.
With all lowliness and meekness, with longsuffering, forbearing one another
in love; Ephesians 4:2
Behold, we count them happy which endure. Ye have heard of the patience
of Job, and have seen the end of the Lord; that the Lord is very pitiful, and
of tender mercy. James 5:11
But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness,
goodness, faith, Galatians 5:22
Dear God, please help us angry people I know that we will be able to help and
calm some other angry person one day but I really need help day to day. You are
perfect. Please help us have self-control. In Jesus Name, Amen.
Day 2
Dealing with Family
I was dealing with an extended family member who can be extremely trying.
The story is too long to get into but I will say that because of all the hurt she has
suffered she is somewhat delusional. I was trying to make her see things a little
clearer when she got very mad and said that I played the Devil’s advocate. This
is so not true but I guess that is the way she looked at it and that is what she
interpreted and heard. The next time she tried to talk to me about the same issue,
I said that I would rather not talk with her about it anymore. I reminded her that
she had got mad at me before and that I just rather not talk about that subject any
more. She respected that I think or she may have been a bit peeved not totally
sure. Seriously, if you don’t know where to draw the line with certain people
you can be dragged into the middle of something you are not prepared for.
Things can turn ugly pretty quick, Christian or not. I don’t know about you but
if I say something that comes across as being mean then I feel bad later on. So
sometimes it is necessary to avoid some things. If any of you lack wisdom, let
him ask of God, that giveth to all men liberally, and upbraideth not; and it
shall be given him. James 1:5. We need wisdom and God gives it liberally.
Also we need to pray about these things so that we can have good and helpful
words. I felt wise doing this and I do believe it was the right thing to do at least
at this time.
Dear God, give us wisdom liberally. We need wisdom more than ever in this day
and age. Help us have wisdom to stay out situations that cause anger.
Day 3
Going to Bed Mad
Not recommended right? Don’t let the sun go down on your anger. Be ye
angry, and sin not: let not the sun goes down on your wrath, Ephesians
4:26. This doesn’t mean staying up all night and arguing until its right, or
ignoring your spouse. I’ve done both of these things before. This means pray
until you are not angry. Challenging right? God help us. Do you ever feel like
your blood is actually boiling? Well then you can relate. You might be thinking
that I am not a good Christian. Well the truth of the matter is everyone is at
different places in our walk with the Lord. And God uses the bad for good
–And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God,
to them who are the called according to his purpose. Romans 8:28. It is hard
to pray when you are angry. First, I tell God all the things that I am angry about
and then I ask if He will help me with it. A fool gives full vent to his anger, but
a wise man keeps himself under control. Proverbs 29:11. So we can just vent
to God and ask for wisdom. Oh yes, I have been foolish many times.
Dear Heavenly Father, help us not vent our anger full but give us the tools that
we need to keep ourselves under control. Help us think of these bible verses and
bring them to our remembrance. Thank you. In Jesus Name, Amen.
Day 4
Anger Turned Inwards
I believe that if you keep all of your anger inside it will turn into depression,
bitterness or resentment; or perhaps even an illness. A merry heart doeth good
like a medicine: but a broken spirit drieth the bones. Proverbs 17:22.
Adrenaline releasing and then where does it go? I am not a theologian nor am I
a physician. This is just some random information that I gathered on my own.
Later on, I had found this interesting article: When we get mad, our rational
prefrontal lobes shut down and the reflexive back areas of the brain take over.
The left hemisphere also becomes more stimulated as the brain’s hormonal and
cardiovascular responses kick in.
A tense body pumps out cholesterol and a group of chemicals called
catecholamines, which encourage fatty deposits to pile up in the heart and
carotid arteries. It’s no surprise, then, that angry people are three times more
likely to have a heart attack than those less prone to fury.
The fight-or-flight response can prompt your nervous system to cut blood flow
to your stomach and divert it to your muscles, impacting intestinal-tract
contractions and digestive secretions. Stress can also increase stomach acids.
Anger sure ain’t pretty. It causes a surge in the stress hormone cortisol, which
bumps up oil production and leads to acne and other skin problems. During
prolonged and frequent eruptions of rage, parts of the nervous system become
highly activated, making it difficult to return to a relaxed state and, over time,
affecting the immune system. (Article from:
(http://www.readersdigest.ca/health/healthy-living/what-really-happens-when-
you-get-angry)
Godly venting is there such a thing? Smashing dishes? No. Exercise, heavy
work, breathing properly, prayer yes, God will help us retrain our brain.
Day 5
Frustrated For No Reason
Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will
strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right
hand. Isaiah 41:10
Do you ever feel frustrated for no reason? Or at least you can't figure out the
reason right away. I'm not sure why yet but I am guessing that a bunch of little
things were frustrating me before I went to bed and because of it I had bad
dreams and woke up this way. I am a fairly moody person at times but it is
annoying. I annoy myself. My dreams are wide screen, technicolor and
sometimes have theme music. They are extremely real to me. I know that I
probably sound like a child. Regardless, this effects my day. And being a
Christian, to be honest my heart doesn't feel right even to pray when this
happens. But I try. I am so tired of struggling with moodiness. I have been on
medication before and noticed that the side effects outweighed my actual
problem in the first place. For some medication is necessary and I'm not saying
this is the route is for everyone. Things that have helped me in the past: -Writing
in my journal, praying in writing form, listening to uplifting music, making a list
of blessings, helping someone else in worse shape, watching a funny movie,
Things that don't help me: talking to my husband about it (sometimes), thinking
too much and not doing anything, complaining. Is it possible that sometimes we
want to feel this way? It is somewhat comfortable? It's just a thought. I know
that we might think who in the right mind wants to feel this way? Sometimes it
seems as though we can't help the onset, but maybe we can turn it around. These
are just my random thoughts about frustration and related mood issues.
“The great thing to remember is that though our feelings come and go God's
love for us does not.” ~ C.S. Lewis
