Table Of ContentFinding Love Through Female Domination
RENEE LANE
With original illustrations by Amitabha Naskar
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Copyright © 2016 by Renee Lane.
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Contents
Introduction
Chapter 1 At the BeginningPhilosophy
Chapter 2 Service
Chapter 3 Discipline
Chapter 4 Blackmail
Chapter 5 Psychological Control
Chapter 6 Humiliation
Chapter 7 Practical Matters
Chapter 8 Sexuality
Chapter 9 Spirituality
Chapter 10 The End Game
Denouement
Final words
Introduction
This is the story of my ten-year struggle to transform my loving boyfriend
into a completely submissive partner. It was a steeper path than either of us
anticipated. It took my efforts, his devotion, and the help of several women to
complete this journey.
An S&M relationship, particularly an S&M relationship where the woman
rules, is the last taboo between consenting adults. I predict that our society
will eventually grow more accustomed to female-led couples much like it
accustomed itself to gay couples. It must, because many of us in the S&M
community are coming out of the closet.
I met Butler, my submissive, through mutual acquaintances. Several
months after we started dating, he finally summoned the courage to tell me of
his long-held but secret desire to find a dominatrix to teach him submission.
To my complete joy I was honestly able to tell him that I was eager to join
him on this adventure because I also secretly shared his dream of dominating
one special man.
My slave, Butler, is my great love. He is the wisest and best man I have
ever known. His commitment to our lifestyle humbles me. His courage has
made our life together possible.
One of the first requirements I had for him was to keep a journal of his
experiences. In it he was to describe what happened and his reaction. I
wanted to gauge his response to the techniques I planned to employ to
enslave him.
These excerpts from his journal were never meant for publication, so they
are not a consistent or complete representation of our progress. They do,
however, reveal some of the struggles we have had as we progressed. In
addition, I gathered a collection of pertinent e-mails to and from my friend
Heather that reveal my intentions and my compromises as we journeyed
down this path.
Heather’s e-mails are important because her reintroduction into my life
jumpstarted my deeper training of Butler. After making minimum progress
on my own, I discovered that dominating a man required support from at
least one other woman.
From his journal entries and our e-mails, I have cobbled together a
narrative of our lives of the past decade. I organized this writing
chronologically as events happened but also under separate headings because
as we progressed we were often working on different aspects of his
submission. You will find that things move slowly at first in this story
because that’s the way events should unfold in a serious S&M relationship,
but if you keep reading, you will notice how intense and real his training
eventually becomes.
I do not recommend that every couple interested in a female-led
relationship attempt this lifestyle. Our journey took an enormous amount of
trust in each other and a complete commitment that is rare. However, once
started down this path it’s hard not to want more. My suggestion is to proceed
with caution. In my opinion, the practice of female domination should come
with a warning label.
“Releasing the id and the latent spiritual power of a woman can easily
consume a man.”
You’ve likely found this book in the erotica or fiction section of the
bookstore. This book has often been mislabeled. Yes, I changed our names to
protect our privacy but you’ll know the truth of this story when you read it.
Ms. Renee Lane
Venice, Florida
Chapter One
AT THE BEGINNING
PHILOSOPHY
January 2009
Dear Heather,
I’m so glad we found each other on Facebook! Recently, things have been
happening in my life that caused me to think often of you. I can’t believe
you’ve been married two times already! You’ve been busy! My boyfriend has
started discussing marriage but I’m leery of the idea.
I’m glad we’re back in touch. I’m happy that you have found a submissive
girlfriend. Remember when we were dorm mates in college and we would
stay up until the early hours fantasizing about owning a submissive playmate
we could turn into our slave? College boys just weren’t ready for us! In truth,
we weren’t ready either.
I always thought it was weird and very ironic that two young women with
dominant desires were put in the same dorm room. It’s like we filled out a
questionnaire, and because we said we liked the same thing they put us
together without thinking it would have been better to pair us with a
submissive. Ha! Looking back, I’m surprised we didn’t kill each other.
Now look at us. We both have someone on whom to practice our
dominatrix fantasies.
You asked me about my boyfriend. I think I have found the one man
willing to go as far as I want to take an S&M relationship. Only you can
imagine how far I want to go. I’m eager to tell you everything because I don’t
have anyone else who will understand what’s happening to me but you.
You know that I was never interested in a routine relationship. My
problem, I’m sure you’ll remember, is that I bore easily. I crave challenge
and excitement. I especially long for a high level of intensity in my
relationships.
Like you, my path of self-discovery led me to understand that I am a sexual
dominant. I was not shocked concerning my erotic predilections because I
have always had fantasies of dominating my lovers even before I met you. As
a little girl, I spent hours tying up my dolls! I never knew anyone who shared
my fantasies until I met you. Somehow, knowing that you felt the same way
made me feel more comfortable in my skin. I remember the terribly
wonderful things we used to do together in school when we found the right
kind of guy to practice on! Sometimes I wonder what ever happened to some
of them. I’m afraid we may have left a few of them traumatized. I’d feel bad
but I remember that they often only came back looking for more! Ha!
After graduating, I gradually introduced myself to the local S&M scene
here in Memphis and became familiar with the usual practices of bondage
and discipline. I eventually collected the necessary accoutrement of the
lifestyle dominatrix and began experimenting by dominating different men
and women who interested me. I moved back to the historic part of Memphis,
so I own an older home with a huge attic room. I’ve made that into my
playroom. It’s been fun to make my boyfriend build most of the equipment I
use on him.
He and I connect on many levels both intellectually and emotionally. We
share roughly the same political views and interests. He also has musical
ability that I find attractive. We even love the same books. I see too many
people, especially men, trying to find a kinky partner without also seeking a
life partner. I think it’s important to find someone who you would be happy
with even without S&M play. Ha! As if people like us could be happy
without this!
After finding the right man, I am excited to be disciplining him within the
safe space that we have created. However, my goal now is to do more than
play bedroom bondage games. My new goal is to make him my slave in a
very real and practical manner. I think I can take this further than you and I
ever imagined even in our fantasies. The reason I think I can be successful is
that we both want this. He longs to submit to me.
It sounds like we are a perfect match but it has been difficult to overcome
the constant influence of vanilla culture. As I’m sure you know, one simply
doesn’t torture one’s partner in polite society. Instead, our relationship stays
buried deep in the closet. Societal norms are suffocating for a couple like us.
Despite these norms, we have had many long talks about what we are willing
to do to achieve a union filled with enough physical and emotional intensity
to keep us satisfied.
The thought of being truly owned by me excited him. I made it clear when
he asked for more that I would not limit my dominance to the bedroom. I was
not interested in dressing the part for a kinky evening then becoming a mere
equal the next morning. If he wanted to be my slave in the bedroom, then he
would have to become my servant outside of it. He readily agreed to do
whatever was necessary to make his slavery practical. We knew it would take
years of work but we both committed to something real.
